So he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was moved with compassion for him, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. Luke 15:20 AMP
The Father doesn't care where you've been or what you've done. He knows it anyway yet he wants you back. If you've been gone for long, seen it and done it all, yet you're still pining for something, it could be the yearning to return into his loving bosom. Why don't you take steps of returning? The Father will run to meet you when he sees you retuning. Don't stay and eat pigs swirl, return and there will be a banquet waiting for you. Don't listen to the lies of the enemy saying the Father is so angry with you, he can't wait to punish you. It isn't true. The Father is watching and waiting for you to come to the realization and awakening that he is loving and caring and wants you back. Ask yourself: why would he give Christ to save us and then condemn us? Remember he's not man. Man would want you to suffer until you're dead and suffer even the more in the grave. Our Father has something called grace and compassion. Take those steps, find a church where the true word of God is preached, not gimmicks and comedy. Find a church family you can belong to; where you can grow and mature in the spirit. What are you waiting for? Today is the day and now is the time. Ask Christ into your life and watch him turn it into something beautiful.
Let's pray: My life is in your hands Almighty Father. Take it and turn me into something you are most proud of. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray. Amen